My hopes are so high,
that your kiss might kill me.
So won't you kill me,
so I die happy.

-dashboard

my life has been unbearable for the past week. i cant stand being so far away from you my kosmic jeanyus. and i am angry at boys. his friend bragged about him all night. told me how he was the best skater our age. it made my heart sink into my stomach. then before he signed off... he told me "he's going out with her". uh, it hurts. so now my eyes are back on my old crush. i told my friends that i was over him. but really im not. everytime he hugs me or throws me into a bush... i love him more.